Venting
This post may not make sense to anyone else but me. It's my ramblings.
I love Al. He is my man. He is wonderful.
Al lied to me. Lying or omitting part of the truth is not healthy. I'm extremely hurt and angered by this revelation. Now, his motives for not disclosing certain information was to protect me. In his mind, he was helping me. I guess I can't doubt his intentions. However, I need to let him know that no matter how much it may hurt me, I'd rather know the full truth. Especially when asked directly, I do not appreciate being lied to or deceived. This is outrageous in a deep level relationship.
I feel a lack of trust in Al. I thought he was a man of integrity. I feel less respect for him. I am not sure of who he is. I feel that our level of relationship has cheapened and become less intimate. I feel angry at Al for lying to me. I feel deceived.
I do love Al. But I feel so angry at him. How could he lie to me?
Even if he's afraid, I need him to tell me the truth. We can work it out. He's not responsible for me or my reactions. But he's responsible to God and me to tell the truth.
I love Al. He is my man. He is wonderful.
Al lied to me. Lying or omitting part of the truth is not healthy. I'm extremely hurt and angered by this revelation. Now, his motives for not disclosing certain information was to protect me. In his mind, he was helping me. I guess I can't doubt his intentions. However, I need to let him know that no matter how much it may hurt me, I'd rather know the full truth. Especially when asked directly, I do not appreciate being lied to or deceived. This is outrageous in a deep level relationship.
I feel a lack of trust in Al. I thought he was a man of integrity. I feel less respect for him. I am not sure of who he is. I feel that our level of relationship has cheapened and become less intimate. I feel angry at Al for lying to me. I feel deceived.
I do love Al. But I feel so angry at him. How could he lie to me?
Even if he's afraid, I need him to tell me the truth. We can work it out. He's not responsible for me or my reactions. But he's responsible to God and me to tell the truth.
1 Comments:
At 6:54 p.m.,
Polar Bear said…
I do understand the conflicting emotions you have. It comes down to that black and white thinking that we have.
I hope that with time, you will be better able to deal with the hurt that you feel by Al's lying to you. It's a start to realise that Al's intention was from his desire to protect you.
Hugs
Polar B.
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