Find You

Wow! It's been forever since I've posted. Sometimes when I go on facebook, I get all these rushing thoughts and emotions that I just need to vent...

Trying to find you
Any hint of you from the past
My memories
Where are you?
How can I find you?

You were so small.
Nothing to show for our friendship, but my memories and some photographs.
I miss you. I want to see you. I want to know that your life turned out well.

I am good and my life is better than I could have dreamed. Although I haven't gone as far in my career as I would have dreamed as a youngster, my life isn't over. I used those key times in life to build my character and heart. Inside I am okay. I am safe. I am settled and at peace. I have found joy. I have found life. Jesus is my life and forgave my sins...the ones you all probably know about so well. He has forgiven me. He will forgive you. It's okay now. I'm okay.

I know life was crazy there for a while. You probably didn't know what happened or where the old Joanna went to. Well, I'm back and better than ever. I'm married to a wonderful man who treats me well. I am happy. I am content.

Sure there are times when I look back and wish things could have been different. Who doesn't, I guess. I have many regrets, but I can't change the course of my life. I have learned and will continue to learn from my mistakes.

I am good. I am fine. I want to know where you are and how I can contact you. Your memory burns so bright, like a warm light that I can't get out of my head. If you find me, come say hi, old friend. You are always welcome here. You are already in my heart.

Come look for me.