Post 101
This is my 101st post on blogger! Yeah!!
It's 9:47 pm and I'm so tired, yet upset. My mom is so frustrating me!! She is so disrespectful and rude to me. She doesn't listen to me. She talks over me and interupts me while I'm talking. She doesn't really seem to care about me at all. She said she'd be at my house by 6:30 at the latest, well she called at 6:30 to say she'd be picking up the food and she showed up at 7pm. Well, I wish she just didn't come over!! I'm feeling extremely tired, exhausted, nauseous and sick. She comes in and just starts talking away about her life, her concerns and her thoughts. I tell her I'm tired and she just keeps talking about her life. No one helps me unpack the food as I feel like I'm going to faint. Then, as we eat, again she only seems interested in herself. When I talk, she interupts me and starts talking about something totally different than what I'm saying. I feel like I have to fight to just finish my sentences and be heard. For example, I showed her a picture of Colin, Jessica and their baby (Fiona...I think my mom was talking as I was trying to tell her the name of the baby). I said, "This is a picture of Colin, one of Al's friends, his wife and their baby ...(Fiona...my mom talks over me)". Then, about 1/2 hour later, she points to the same picture, in the same place and says, "Oh is that your friend, Krista?" She is just not interested in my life. I'm the one at home without my husband and feeling completely sick and she doesn't even care!! I repeatedly tell her, I don't need digestive enzymes, but she still keeps giving them to me. I don't need them. That's not my problem and I've told her that!!!! But, she doesn't seem to care. She is the most rude, selfish, self-absorbed person I know!! She doesn't seem to care what I'm going through. Her actions are so invalidating...she shows up late, talks over me, doesn't listen to what I have to say, doesn't respect my opinions and just wants to talk about her thoughts. She really does interupt me...like all night. It would have been better if I stayed home alone and cooked being sick rather than have her over and be rude to me. No one deserves to be treated that way. She has to look at how she treats me and others. She has to take a really hard look at her actions and her rudeness. I won't put up with it. I guess I just expected a mom who would care about me and want to take care of me. But, I was expecting too much. First, she didn't seem to care that I was feeling tired and sick...she didn't comment on it or say anything...she just kept going with her speel about her life. I hate the way she makes me feel about myself. It makes me feel so horrible about who I am as a person. It makes me feel like I'm nothing. I would rather never talk to her again, ever, than have her treat me so disrespectfully. If she can't treat me well, then I'd rather not be around her. No one else treats me like that and I don't treat others like that...why does my mom treat me so badly? I hate her. I wish she wasn't my mother. I wish she never had me. I wish she wasn't around me. I wish that I wasn't her daughter. I wish I had a nice mom who actually cared about me, thought about me before herself and respected me. I guess that's asking too much. Why can't I just admit it...my mom is a very selfish person and she will never really care for me the way that most moms would care for their daughters. She is too self absorbed to care about my life, my needs, my wants, my hopes and who I am. She is too busy putting me down to really see who I am. I hate my mom. I wish she wasn't my mom. I don't want to talk to her. She wants to call me or email me tomorrow. But, I really don't want to talk to her at all. I wish I could disown her.
It's 9:47 pm and I'm so tired, yet upset. My mom is so frustrating me!! She is so disrespectful and rude to me. She doesn't listen to me. She talks over me and interupts me while I'm talking. She doesn't really seem to care about me at all. She said she'd be at my house by 6:30 at the latest, well she called at 6:30 to say she'd be picking up the food and she showed up at 7pm. Well, I wish she just didn't come over!! I'm feeling extremely tired, exhausted, nauseous and sick. She comes in and just starts talking away about her life, her concerns and her thoughts. I tell her I'm tired and she just keeps talking about her life. No one helps me unpack the food as I feel like I'm going to faint. Then, as we eat, again she only seems interested in herself. When I talk, she interupts me and starts talking about something totally different than what I'm saying. I feel like I have to fight to just finish my sentences and be heard. For example, I showed her a picture of Colin, Jessica and their baby (Fiona...I think my mom was talking as I was trying to tell her the name of the baby). I said, "This is a picture of Colin, one of Al's friends, his wife and their baby ...(Fiona...my mom talks over me)". Then, about 1/2 hour later, she points to the same picture, in the same place and says, "Oh is that your friend, Krista?" She is just not interested in my life. I'm the one at home without my husband and feeling completely sick and she doesn't even care!! I repeatedly tell her, I don't need digestive enzymes, but she still keeps giving them to me. I don't need them. That's not my problem and I've told her that!!!! But, she doesn't seem to care. She is the most rude, selfish, self-absorbed person I know!! She doesn't seem to care what I'm going through. Her actions are so invalidating...she shows up late, talks over me, doesn't listen to what I have to say, doesn't respect my opinions and just wants to talk about her thoughts. She really does interupt me...like all night. It would have been better if I stayed home alone and cooked being sick rather than have her over and be rude to me. No one deserves to be treated that way. She has to look at how she treats me and others. She has to take a really hard look at her actions and her rudeness. I won't put up with it. I guess I just expected a mom who would care about me and want to take care of me. But, I was expecting too much. First, she didn't seem to care that I was feeling tired and sick...she didn't comment on it or say anything...she just kept going with her speel about her life. I hate the way she makes me feel about myself. It makes me feel so horrible about who I am as a person. It makes me feel like I'm nothing. I would rather never talk to her again, ever, than have her treat me so disrespectfully. If she can't treat me well, then I'd rather not be around her. No one else treats me like that and I don't treat others like that...why does my mom treat me so badly? I hate her. I wish she wasn't my mother. I wish she never had me. I wish she wasn't around me. I wish that I wasn't her daughter. I wish I had a nice mom who actually cared about me, thought about me before herself and respected me. I guess that's asking too much. Why can't I just admit it...my mom is a very selfish person and she will never really care for me the way that most moms would care for their daughters. She is too self absorbed to care about my life, my needs, my wants, my hopes and who I am. She is too busy putting me down to really see who I am. I hate my mom. I wish she wasn't my mom. I don't want to talk to her. She wants to call me or email me tomorrow. But, I really don't want to talk to her at all. I wish I could disown her.
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