Paxil Decrease too soon
It's Friday afternoon and I'm doing much better after uping my dose of Paxil. Since Saturday, I have had BAD, I mean BAD, headaches. It was mostly on the left side of my face so I think it was a migraine. I had to go to work so I worked through pretty intense pain until I got a perscription for headache pain relief on Tuesday night. I was irritable on Tuesday morning and even feeling a bit anxious. My eye socket and cheekbone then really felt sore like I had been bruised and punched in the face yesterday. Upon the doctor's recommendation, I increased my dose to 5mg one day and 2.5 mg the next day. Today, I feel so much better headache wise. Therefore, it MUST be Paxil related. I also have developed a rash on my face that's itchy. I don't know if it's from the headache medication or the Paxil withdrawal. Anyway, withdrawing off Paxil is no party - infact, it's really, really difficult. I can't wait to finally be off of it. But, one good thing is that psychologically I did well. I loved life and I didn't want to hurt myself. It's definitely encouraging to know that I'm doing much better. Yeah! Praise God!!
On a happier note, my parents-in-law are coming to our place tonight! I haven't seen them since October at their son's wedding in Halifax! They're going to Italy and then moving back to Ontario so I can see them more!! They're so amazing! I couldn't have asked for better parents-in-law!! They only thing I find draining is that I need more alone time and they're real talkers. So, I just have to watch my boundaries and provide a way to "rest" or take that "alone" time this weekend. (I'm sure they feel the same way!:))
My family is so different. They all like to be active and doing something. So, they're more likely to watch tv or a movie together, play cards, play computer games or do independent activities - all of which don't require much talking (except during dinner). I think a balance of talking and alone time is ideal.
Al's parents are sooo supportive. They always seem to know what's going on in our lives and they're interested in knowing how things are going for us. They seem to have lots of anticdotal (spelling?) stories to tell. I just feel so cared for when I meet with them. The only thing is that they're British and I always kind of feel awkward being of a different culture. I feel like they won't accept me the way I am, but they are so accepting. I guess it's sort of foolish to think they don't accept me because I know they love me. Al is very happy - the happiest he's been in his life, he says. So, I know we're a good couple and God has brought us together. I guess I need to just give up this lie that Al's parents may think I'm not good enough. It's simply not true. I think when I heard MY mom say "No one's good enough for my son," I figured my mother-in-law may feel the same way about me. Now, that I think about it, my brother was married over a year ago and my mom thinks that Junko is plenty good enough for Ray. So, I guess when parents know it's a right fit for their son, they accept the daughter-in-law. That's how I'll take it anyway!:)
On a happier note, my parents-in-law are coming to our place tonight! I haven't seen them since October at their son's wedding in Halifax! They're going to Italy and then moving back to Ontario so I can see them more!! They're so amazing! I couldn't have asked for better parents-in-law!! They only thing I find draining is that I need more alone time and they're real talkers. So, I just have to watch my boundaries and provide a way to "rest" or take that "alone" time this weekend. (I'm sure they feel the same way!:))
My family is so different. They all like to be active and doing something. So, they're more likely to watch tv or a movie together, play cards, play computer games or do independent activities - all of which don't require much talking (except during dinner). I think a balance of talking and alone time is ideal.
Al's parents are sooo supportive. They always seem to know what's going on in our lives and they're interested in knowing how things are going for us. They seem to have lots of anticdotal (spelling?) stories to tell. I just feel so cared for when I meet with them. The only thing is that they're British and I always kind of feel awkward being of a different culture. I feel like they won't accept me the way I am, but they are so accepting. I guess it's sort of foolish to think they don't accept me because I know they love me. Al is very happy - the happiest he's been in his life, he says. So, I know we're a good couple and God has brought us together. I guess I need to just give up this lie that Al's parents may think I'm not good enough. It's simply not true. I think when I heard MY mom say "No one's good enough for my son," I figured my mother-in-law may feel the same way about me. Now, that I think about it, my brother was married over a year ago and my mom thinks that Junko is plenty good enough for Ray. So, I guess when parents know it's a right fit for their son, they accept the daughter-in-law. That's how I'll take it anyway!:)
