Out of Therapy!
I'm out of therapy!!! Yeah! It's been about just under 2 years of pretty intense therapy. The last few months has been more of check ups. It took about 6-8 months of intense therapy after the "diagnosis" that I had traits of Borderline Personality Disorder. It's been about 3-4 months of monthly check ups. My psychologist is going to the U.S. around July. And I have the name of one of his coworkers in case I need some more follow up after that time.
I'm still on 5 mg of Paxil daily. I may start the lowering again of 5 mg one day, 2.5 mg. the next day, 5 mg. the third day, etc. very soon. I bought a pill cutter and it really helps make the pill splitting more accurate. (Plus I couldn't cut Paxil into 2.5 without a pill cutter.)
Al & I still want a baby but I'm really enjoying this time of freedom as well. I feel so free now that I'm out of therapy, no demanding pets, feeling independent, love my church, not a pastor's wife anymore...I feel so free! I love it! I love my life!
My sister-in-law came over yesterday. She said that about a couple years ago when she was in Japan that her friend committed suicide. She had BPD as well but was very low functioning and was always threatening to kill herself or hurt herself. She fell in love with her psychologist and didn't want to see any other doctor. She was divorced from her husband and stalked him. But after she fell in love with her psychologist, she ended up planning and taking her own life. So sad. My sister-in-law was very shaken up as this women was a good friend and she took her life 2 months before my brother and sister-in-law's wedding. It was good that she talked to me about this topic because my sister-in-law knew that I had some mental/emotional difficulties but she didn't know exactly what kind. I told her yesterday that I had the same disorder and we talked about it openly. I explained some more about BPD and why people can get it. I don't think in Japan, the psychologists would know about DBT or how to help someone with BPD. So, it is really sad.
Stories like this really affirm the fact that I want to go into psychology to help others. I signed up yesterday for my first class in about 8 years!! It's on psychological disorders. It sounds sooo good! I have to write a major paper on a psychological disorder. I'm thinking of writing on Seasonal Affective Disorder, Bi-Polar, Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression (although I'd have to specialize because it's really a huge topic) or ...? It's kind of scary because it's been sooo long since I was at school so I'm hoping I'll do okay in my essay writing. I'll get my husband to proof read! We'll see how it goes. The class doesn't start until July and the papers aren't due until the end of July but I know I'll need a lot of time to do all the work, so I'm starting now. Yeah!!!!
I'm still on 5 mg of Paxil daily. I may start the lowering again of 5 mg one day, 2.5 mg. the next day, 5 mg. the third day, etc. very soon. I bought a pill cutter and it really helps make the pill splitting more accurate. (Plus I couldn't cut Paxil into 2.5 without a pill cutter.)
Al & I still want a baby but I'm really enjoying this time of freedom as well. I feel so free now that I'm out of therapy, no demanding pets, feeling independent, love my church, not a pastor's wife anymore...I feel so free! I love it! I love my life!
My sister-in-law came over yesterday. She said that about a couple years ago when she was in Japan that her friend committed suicide. She had BPD as well but was very low functioning and was always threatening to kill herself or hurt herself. She fell in love with her psychologist and didn't want to see any other doctor. She was divorced from her husband and stalked him. But after she fell in love with her psychologist, she ended up planning and taking her own life. So sad. My sister-in-law was very shaken up as this women was a good friend and she took her life 2 months before my brother and sister-in-law's wedding. It was good that she talked to me about this topic because my sister-in-law knew that I had some mental/emotional difficulties but she didn't know exactly what kind. I told her yesterday that I had the same disorder and we talked about it openly. I explained some more about BPD and why people can get it. I don't think in Japan, the psychologists would know about DBT or how to help someone with BPD. So, it is really sad.
Stories like this really affirm the fact that I want to go into psychology to help others. I signed up yesterday for my first class in about 8 years!! It's on psychological disorders. It sounds sooo good! I have to write a major paper on a psychological disorder. I'm thinking of writing on Seasonal Affective Disorder, Bi-Polar, Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression (although I'd have to specialize because it's really a huge topic) or ...? It's kind of scary because it's been sooo long since I was at school so I'm hoping I'll do okay in my essay writing. I'll get my husband to proof read! We'll see how it goes. The class doesn't start until July and the papers aren't due until the end of July but I know I'll need a lot of time to do all the work, so I'm starting now. Yeah!!!!
